Wedding days
It's Saturday, May 28, 2005. Gordon got married, I was his camera men. It was great, a few family members, lot of friends. I was the only one wearing a hat from my customer all day long, due to my "banded" head. Anyways, it was exciting, being a camera men put me in a place where I see wedding differently. But I know it's not kind of wedding I will plan for mine, Mine will be more at very casual side, either hundreds of friends, or just a few to be intimate, I think I am leaning toward intimate one.
It was great to see QQ and his wife, they are a funny couple. My kinda couple.
Thunders...
Thunder is further
than thought,
like summer rain,
further
than doubt
thunder is closer
than
orange sky
drizzles
intimate night
Try
I tried many things: reading, thinking about business, going to down town's coffe shop in my favorite neigborhood, even buying stuff at whole foods market; I tried writing, playing guitar, playing basketball, watching TV till 2AM. It does not work. Losing center, feeling trivial...
Center and gravity
I have not been really pondering about life lately. Having sugery on Friday and a few days of recovery required put me in a place where all of a sudden, I don't really know what to do. I don't have to go to work. I am not working on any more degrees. I am not doing any sports for a few days, maybe weeks. I don't really know when to do what since all of a sudden there is so much time so little to do. I started thinking about the job that I complained about, the soccer, the windsurfing, dancing that I used to do all the time. Taken out, my life is empty. That is scary. There is no a center in my life. I am just haning in there, losing gravity.
What is the center and gravity?
Billy
Poooooooooooooood in my bath room!!!! It's so stinkyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!
Feeling
...When sun is rising, we gotta start running...
...Feeling is in air...
...Ordinary...
...Invisible...
...Trivial...
...Helpless...
Quote of the day
Louis Pasteur said it a long time ago: Fortune favors the prepared mind.
Crissy field and presidio
How could I not know crissy field? The paradise for windsurfers. It has unbeatable views with spectacular golden gate bridge right behind, average 20 to 35 miles wind speed and plenty of beatufil women looking out. There are also lots of kit surfers. In a sunny weekend like this, it's a 3 d world of huge kits, splashes, windsurfers, huge cargo ships and a heaven for families, pets, couples etc.
How could I not know presidio well? A year ago, I lost my way driving in presidio and it was gaia to talk me out of the wildness. Today, a whole new insititue is up and running and that is Jorge Nucas studio's new location. The place was just finished up and it was all still locked up. Someday it will be filled with artists, graduates from place like newly established Stanford film department. What a location!
Chestnut is definetely a vibrant street that is typical to San Francisco, street artist that is dressed well (which means they are not homeless artists), yupees, locals, everyone look beautiful. It reminds me Paris in lot of movies, stories that social scene becomes the central of the everyday life. I wonder if I have lived?
San Francisco's beauty day
Finally, I had my "plastic" surgery done (close enough;) it took an entire day of Friday. It's quite an experience. May 20, 2005, I shall never forget.
While I watched four movies including lord of ring the fellowship, I also discovered the social hiararchy in everyday working America. Markting, sales is usually Americans, for that I mean whites. For less attractive job but still public oriented, you find European immegrants where Russian girls is everywhere, they might have accent, but their looks are more acceptable to public and that somehow compliment lack of English skill. Engineering team is often filled up with Chinese and indian. Doctors are white and asians. Nurses has to be R.A. usually educated Asians. Medical assistants, domestic cares are usually provided by Philipinos who recently immigrated.
Jennifer Connelly
I wonder if she is every man's ultimate dream girl: mysteriously beautiful, quietly intelligent, dangerously sexy...
Farm market revisit
It's been 7 days and my fridge is getting empty again. Farm market nice experiences from last Tuesday prompted me another visit. The weather was kinda sloppy so is the crowd. I did not even pick any califlower.
My favorite quote
As they say, "you can't win if you don't play"
Two tricks learned about windsurfing
Great stuff always comes when I least expected them. Saturday afternoon was gorgeous with lot of sun, cloud (meaning wind!!!) and about 70 degree of temperature which is excellent for windsurfing. Howard, the very cautious money manager who caught in windsurfing for 4 years and still just managed to advance to Junior, has never used harness, still!!! That was last August! Everytime he saw me, he was always very persistent on learning how I was doing on my harness skill and how danger it could be. Just to be honest, I am a super harness master and still searching for the best technique. While I could not explain very convincingly to myself why I do what I do about harness and foot strip, here came a half naked guy who obviously just finished up surfing today. So Howard turned to him to start ponding with questions. I got a bit impatient since the wind was so excellent but I got stuck with Howard. Half naked turned out a senior, meaning he is almost a pro! I was curious how he manages the position of harness. He explained that whichever arms pulls too much, that is where Harness position should be moving to: counter react to the windpull force on arms. Excellent. And when you fall on high speed, make sure hold on to the boom so it won't smash against your body which is not fun. As to where to position the foot, he mentioned when in perfect spot in harness, there should not be any pulling on your arms, neither on your legs, legs and arms merely work as controling, adjusting, directioning. When plaining, you will find it almost natural and always better to move foot to the back side of the board.
Man, If I had David the bald giving the precious first 20 minutes lesson who saved me from being a forever Novice, Mr. Half naked definetely is the man who handed me the key to advance more. For that, Thanks, Mr. Money manager!
Farm market and girls
I am not in a mood to look for girlfriends, at least for another 6 months to a year, given my own little screte and promise I keep to my own. Nevertheless it is still temptating to see cute girls. It was a sunny afternoon afterwork and I decided to shop some fresh vegitables from farm market right off San Antonio road. I believe in a mating theory (actually it's simply opposite sex attraction, but only to the ones you are attracted to) plays huge role for people's decision on which line they choose to stand in. First of all, we go wherever the line seems to be shortest, which doesn't work most of the time based on equilibrium (spelled wrong, I know, English is not a first language!!) Then it comes to who stand in the line, are they decent? Is she cute? If that is out of reach, the least should be a decent cashier. If that is out of question, game over. I wouldn't come back to the same market in conceivably long period of time.
I saw this white girl (well, most of them are whites anyway) in her late 20's, based on my experience and intuition I immediately sensed that she is an intelligently conservative type with a vocalno(spell wrong?) inside of her. She dressedly very casully like a graduate student, not even beautiful type, but I knew she has wild side: why? just look at her butt! She is that type of blonde that will become or has already become a doctor, not the stupid type. There were four cashier stands within this extremely tiny farm market while a chinese couple bosses. Two of those were packed, one has nobody but only takes cash, that is why: people nowadays don't take cash with them. The last one almost has equal number of people as the busiest one, but they appeared to be a newly dating Stanford graduate students couple, the girl is I think a french, the guy is a hairy geek with white trashed type of pony hair under his stupid "S" baseball cap. But the girl looked nice, to be honest that is the only reason I chose that line. Damn that cashier of 60 plus years old guy wearing a geeky Harvard graphic shirt acted extremely slow. By the queue theory, I would say this check out stand at least can increase customer by 30% capacity if he acts like a normal fucking human, instead of pretended to be a fucking professor. Anyways, she standed behind me. The vocalno girl remember? her choice. It got really uncomfortable due to that old man sense of humor (he liked to joke around with the students and appeared to be smart), the other lines got really swift. She still standed behind me. I was getting uncomfortable. I dated a girl just like her two years ago and we would have hitted off. BUt I can't: I have that little secret kept to myself. Suddenly I felt something poked my ankle, I turned around it was the bucket of hers. "I am sorry, are you OK?" she said. That was kind of lame: I thought. It's just a little poke It won't kill a guy! I would have ignored her if not her butt's image in my mind. I politely smiled at her and said nothing. I guess that is the game over for the day.
There was another girl in the cash only stand who I noticed 10 minutes ago but my secret told me to get off before any more thoughts jump in. It was pleasant to see two attractive single girls on both sides while you are only standing inline to check out. That is good feeling. They both have beautiful face and impeccable butt under nice pants. I love women in nice trousers.
Waste
It's such a waste of life for me to work as a program manager. I should have been doing much advanced work given my level of intelligence. Hope it will happen soon.
A weekend life from Billy's eye
Billy is our cat. Her age is not confirmed but it's around 14 to 16 years old which is really really old for a cat. But she can jump and she can spin like a babe on the dance floor. Most of time, she converse, not just Miaoing, converse. She talks to me, when she is longely, disturbed, hungry, or just bored. She is very clean. I am used to have her sleep on my blanket or literally wherever she wants in my room. Most of the time when I have big goals of humankind in mind, I look at Billy and think a life owned by her must be extremely boring. She is almost indoor which makes her spent majority of her time in this New England style's house, which is quite comfortable, but not that comfortable so to spend 90% of life here, so I decided to try out a life like hers, this weekend. From getting up, going to bath room, having breakfast, randomly walking around, staring at nothing, taking a dope, in fact, a few dopes etc., a weekend Sunday seems passing by just like what it does to Billy.
Mother's day
It's surprising to me that none, repeatedly, NONE, of the America based online florist could provide timely, ecnomic and superior International flower delivery service to China. Either the choices are very limited, or the price is too high to the quality. It is a China's website that I eventually purchased an awesome bouquet of flower http://www.zgxhw.com/flower/flower2.asp?spbh=10025# at delicious price. If if it's in US, it will be probably above $100 for flower bouquet like this. And my mom at Shanghai received the flower 20 hours later after I placed order online at Palo Alto. Life is simple isn't it. By the way, she was thrilled!
