What is your direction
Today a friend asked me in a BBQ: what is your direction? Me? I have no direction. That's how I answered him. I search for the happiness of life that fits in my nature: that's my direction. It's not software, not security, not green card, not family. It's freedom to be me.
A lady's week
This week, I watched "Alfie", I went to the cat and danced with 7 girls dangerously close, I got invited to spend a night with a gorgeous English lady at her expanse. As Alfie said, what have I got? A little bit money in the pocket, nice dress, fancy car, and I am single, unattached, nobody depends on me, I depend on noone...but I do not have peace of mind, without that, I have nothing.
My favorite sandwich
is Duck Relleitte, it's from the little nice resturant across the railway...
Track&Field day
Today I ran for team Tsinghua for 100 meters, 200 meters, 4*100 and 4*400. We got gold medals for four events. I ran 11"61 for 100 meters and 23"5 for 200 meters. That's not too bad.
Where do you call it home?
Revisited "horse whisper" which I watched 7 years ago. Montana is soothing indeed while pepole are real there. Old lady asked the New Yorker:"where do you call it home?" She paused...I paused too. I have rarelly thought about that question but I find it diffcult for me to get a straight answer...
Feeling homeless
Actually, not at all. As usual after playing soccer for a bit after work, I was soaked and forgot to bring some to change, therefore I had to drive topless which is not appropriate for picking up some sandwiches from sit in resturant. There is this little to-go burger shop just like those in the 50's moives, simple, cheap, at any given time I drove by, there are always decent looking people, people from all walks of life standing around chatting, waiting for their burgers, fries, shakes, cokes...sounds 50, doesn't it? I parked my car across the street and walked topless with a white dry towel to cover up in case people think it inappropriate. Today's audience is a upper class family with 4 or 5 childrens ranging from 5, 6 years old to 12, 13 yrs old, it was a 5 minutes wait while I noticed their mom pulled up tons of $20 bill which reminded me how much I have in my wallet. People living in this area are generally rich. So I wnet over asking the little Asian man who is obviously the owner of the shop. "do you take card?" "cash only" little man replied. I turned around and was ready to get my favorite duck releatte sandwich from across street's resturant, of course, with my card. As I walked away from the little shop, one of the blonde boy who is about 9 yrs old, skinny, shy, was trying to catch up to me and said "hey", I turned around, wasn't sure what he was about to say, the first reaction is he might have some cash for the changes, but I don't really know how that will work out. He used his right hand's index finger jesguring me to come to him. "Can I buy you the burger?" he was very shy and said almost without being heard. Do I look like a homeless (I was topless, in red soccer shot, and nike saddle, a typical Stanfor student wears after sweating)? I was asking myself. A woman came up to me:"he really wanted to buy you the burger", "oh, Thanks very much, but I was running out of cash. I will get one from across street, there is no need" "but he really wanted to buy you the food, please let him buy it for you" his mom insisted. For one second, I almost gave up to have them buy me stuff. But I did not. "That's very kind of you" I said to that boy, who is very well raised obviously. All kids are typical white kids in sports wear, they look like in some sort of baseball team or horse jockies. Most of the time, I am kinda a lone man who always do my things on my own. I tried to avoid unnecessary contact with strangers. This was one of that occassions. They are indeed very kind.
This is a lyrics I recently loved
cannonball
there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on
there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
that i can’t say what's going on
stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball
there’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
there’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to me
so close that i can't see what's going on
stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannon..
stones taught me to fly
love taught me to cry
so come on courage
teach me to be shy
'cause it's not hard to fall
and i don't wanna scare her
it's not hard to fall
and i don't wanna lose
it's not hard to grow
when you know that you just don't know
Word of the day for Friday Aug. 5?
I was listening to public radio and the host reads a line called "you will be the next screw that falls". Pretty cool.
The blower's daughter
Music could change the mood, it can make normal things look dreamy. This is the first time ever for me to read a business article about online ads by Anne Holland, while listening to Damien Rice's "the blower's daughter". Maybe the business article is using metaphor of sand sculpture to resemble art of arts and its effect, while blower's daughter blows the sea breeze between a man and woman, Romance is melody, it puts things in perspectives.
So it is,
Just like you said it should be,
So it is,
The colder water,
The blower's daughter,
..
I can't take my eyes off you...
I can't take my mind off you...
Made in PRC
Sunday afternoon, lazy sunshine, quiet backyard. Everything seems in slow motion, so is my mind. I turned on the new DVD just bought and watched "closer". The end is pretty good but the entire movie seems pretty dry. It's ending and some diva's voice is drifting out of my small TV monitor, while I purposedlessly opened up the battery door of remote control and observing the Philips battery. Made is PRC caught my attention. I remember years ago this kind of things always are marked "made in Japan". Time has changed and PRC is is the map on rising.
