Always thinking

Back against wall

The desire for success is so strong it suffocates me, I can't smile, breath, play, interact. I always frown when I'm alone, I can not sleep, I've pushed myself into a corner, no, the corner of the same city where I set out to do glorious things 14 years ago but failed to do. I'm too scared, too unwilling, too hesitant. I can and am able, but my pride holds me back. I rather suffer and take my aging parents along with the ride. I'm pushed all the way to the edge of the cliff by a wall of suffocating air of pride, almost sexual desire for success. Its driving me crazy. I can no longer smile. Tears flow backdown inside of me.

posted by Road less travelled @ 5:40 PM