Look what I have found in Halloween!
Halloween my love!!!!! I love Halloween, I love orange, I love colorful trees, I love autumn! I got pizza my heart for dinner wearing my Captain pirate sparrow hat. And I found this interesting band from Sweeden, or are they American? I can not tell by accent. They are funky!
http://www.okgo.net/video.asp
A few new things
As we were struggling with our Romanian based web designer, we were actually surprised by the new homepage provided by them, after we made the full payment. My other project with them also are looking up as a new project manager took over. Things are getting better, at least it seems like so.
So what is new for Holloween? I love the fall season, there are a few trees on coleman ave starts to turn colorful, but only those a few. In fact, Friday night's store, the first one for our bay area's raining season, blew down a huge trunk of a gating giant trees to our yard and completely blocked the drive way as I was heading out Saturday morning to meet up with other two co-founders at SFO.
What else? I have "working" on the online casino for the past two days spending literally overnight playing against the system. The lesson I learned is, never rely on luck, always play with a system, once that system is proven reliable, do not alter it abruptly, and most importantly, only play with the "trival" part of the money instead of any "fund" you may need very soon.
I guess that is it. Have not figured out what to do for the upcoming Holloween, thanksgiving, Christmas, New year, yet. Somehow I have been refusing to let up but more often thinking about my two new ventures.
Hi Madonna
I was not in your tour,
over the castle,
under the lightening,
inside the storm;
But somehow I learned,
your inner most secret,
is the kindness of yours,
a religon of none kind,
the first I believe:
Shake the system, shake it
burn the desire, burn it
destroy the ego, destroy it,
Who cares what they think about me,
I have a big ego!
The more I compromise,
the less I am happy,
only to see it grow,
ego!
My love,
please grow inside of
me,
bigger everyday,
Refuse to be ordinary...
Deep sea fishing trip
Deep sea fishing: cool as it sounds, the reality was rather brutal. Open ocean is ruthlessly bumpy, the wave wall easily reached 10 ft, our little fishing boat was like a helpless leave blown left and right. I was actually excited the first 15 minutes out on the open water, until every cell of my body tells me to vomit and take a dump right away thereafter I had hidden in the tinest rest room on the planet for almost 2 hours: ocean made me so sick that I couldn't sit tight without holding on to the nastiest trash can for less than a minute, it, rather, looked like the lifelihood, rice bowl to me: I can not live without. By the time I came out, I was surprised to see the small cabin was filled with people living by the trash can, I could not move one inch further than needed so to make myself "comfortable" by Joanne who slept away due to seasickness as well. The air in the cabin became sore, smelly with all the throw up. Large amount of flies all of sudden came from no-where from the open ocean. All I could see and not stand the bumpy pictures of sea walls up and down the horizon. I thought lot of things: I realized how important the land is to fisherman, how tough a life and story the "old man and the sea" was made from. I realized all the people that I used to ignore at workspace shares with me the same lifehood: the boat; the same human reaction to mother nature. I am no longer better than them, I am only one of them, a selfish one.
When I was sick in the cabin, I knew the right thing to do immediately is to be against all my will and stand up on my feet and walk out to the deck and breath the fresh air and look out to the horizon: that is the only right thing to do to recover. It's easy said than done. Life is like this most of the time, when I have to do to walk across that line with all energy I have left and out I shall see the sunshine. I did though, at that point, smell is no longer a problem, cleanniess is no longer a problem, surviving is. I managed to walk out to the Sun and was so jealous of the people who not only could live through this wave, but catching the fish and having fun. I called the extreme that I could not surpass. There goes dozens seagulls: another creature that I related to at the time, the grace they carry while fly horizontally in sync with the ship and look at me and everyone else in the world, was simply amazing. They can land on the ocean whenever they feel like and comb through their leathers like nothing happened, while I was only managing to survive. What makes me better than anyone else, including animals? It's just difference, not comparison.
After we landed on the solid ground, Phil and I were cheering, this is where we call home, does not matter if it's 10000 miles from my actual home, does not matter if I have a family here, the ground, solid ground is simply the home.
Phil shares lot of insight with me on the way back, we talked about the racial differences and preferance, previous relationships throught the crowd and traffic of annual half moon bay pumpkin festival. He is single and he pumped out something like this:
"All I want is a girl who can leave me alone"
That is quite a classic male shoutout to ladies.
Msg from faraway, NYC
Nan has obviously settled down at Columbia's business school, a new phd student, quite impressive. She sent me a note saying like this:
"hope you are making money on the stock market, hitting on girls,
enjoying the ocean, feeding billie, keeping your car shiny as always."
But it's was 20 days ago, everything above would be true. But not today, ER dropped $10 consecutively for 8 days in a roll although I am about to inch in more, you know me: always get in at lowest point, based on Stochastic model which is what Nan is studying at Columbia.
My car has been dirty like shit and I just don't bother to clean it due to guee stuff everyday falling from the pine trees to my car. It's quite muddy, my car. Hitting girls: I guess she meant girls hitting on me, which is not happening. I am supposed to go windsurfing every sunday, which is not happening since I have not got a suitable wet suit for me which should have happened three weeks ago.
It's funny that all she hopes is not true.
Msg from far away
Mom and dad called from 10000 miles away: grandma passed away, she was 93. Everything happened quietly, but suddenly. I don't have much memory of Grandma except that she raised 7 kids everyone of them are successful. It must be really tough for my mom. I just tried to make her feel better by acting plain: She was 93, she was not in pain. She passed away after a briefly brushing her teeth. And that's it, she sat down, turned her ahead away and she is gone, gone without a wind, a trace of wind. This was the first time my mom took a flight which is most dreadful thing for her since she always thought she can't deal with her dizziness, but everything turned alright. I hope she is alright, most importantly. Dad is with mom, he was the fighter jet pilot but he has not flied for 40 years. It's time to get them to fly to America, for them to see what is happening everyday to my life.
Midnight cowboy
It started out as cheerful cowboy picture, only to grow into a complex drama where two lost souls fight their ways to survive in big cold city. The movie review mentioned it's the first x-rated movie that won acadamy award, that many young late 60s people could relate to in that turbulent times. I absolutely love this movie, however, I feel the emotion involved between two unlike friends were depicted a little over the top, therefore appears to be unreal.
Learned something
The home network was f***ed up so I have spent days roaming around friend's house until today I finally got time to dig deeper to get the network up and running again, including the wireless. It feels so good to browse the Internet in my own room.
