Word of the day, monday
Limp. Three 3 inches long deep scratch on the bottom of my feet and one day of limping in front of all co-workers: that is the price of windsurfing in a storm with the windspeed about 30 miles an hour, blown to the sea shore filled with razor sharp rock. But it's exciting, and it's kind of cool to limp a little bit for a change, as long as it does not hurt that much. "Are you limping?" that is the most questions I heard people asking Monday morning. "Just a little bit scratch", at other times, I told pepole I twisted my ankle while running: what the point of telling people you don't really know well the detail of your life, like they care what I do on a stormy Sunday afternoon? No one cares, good thing is I don't care either. Just live my life to the fullest. So limp on, for today.
Oh, my god, pink snow
Pink snow, fire, police siren and here comes Felicity and Noel holding each other tight. City could be beautiful when you least expect. I wonder if life is like that. Everyone has a clean path that is well marked, not Felicity, not Noel, not me. What price will people like us need to pay before we find our mark? Maybe we just do not know what we really want. It's so hard to figure that out.
Problem solving
I wonder if the fact that one likes a subject has anything to do with whether one can effectively solve the problem related to such subject? What is problem solving ability? When you are facing a problem, you can effectively find the answer. That is problem solving.
Boys don't cry
More than 4 years after first watching and impressed by this movie, I watched it again. While searching who I really am as a human being, Hillary Swank put such search in words right on the point. Listen to that:
"This film is about finding your true self, and having the courage and the drive to follow through with being yourself, and living that to its fullest"
"...Being who you really are, ...with all of your heart, every cell of your body being who you are, not conforming..."
Murphy's law
Never heard of it. Never thought of it. Never believe it. CFT mentioned "whatever could go wrong, will go wrong": this certainly has its probability aspects but as a black horse, I never believe in convention, I have always, will always breakout to success.
Rejection
Rejection after rejection, it has been the main scene entangling me for the past year, from Gaia, to venture, from casting to photographing.
Dinner to go
It's been raining for days now. If it's Shanghai it would be depressing. But it's not. Bay area's winter is all green, it's specially pretty when it rains. So I love the rain at bay area. I have been eating "in and out" for dinner for passed few days and today I took the exit aiming at it again. Somehow I ended up at the Chinese resturant at the corner of Alma and Rangstorff. The owner seems to be scholar type, he speaks the perfect mandarin. The hostess has a friendly face, shanghainess, of course. She recommanded the "hongshao rou and defupi", which is the shanghai style. While waiting for my dinner, we chatted about the jobs, the careers, and so on. The owner studied Phd, quite impressive, both of them thinks education is extremely important because education prepares one when the opportunity strikes. I mentioned education is not that important: maybe because I got too much of it so that it does not appears the magic anymore; but for those who did not get chance for education, they admire educated people and the opportunity they have. The hostess simply said to me:"you just have not got the right opportunity yet so you don't think it's important, when the opportunity strikes, you will appreciate your education." The phd owner also said to me: "real world job often demands very narrow, or small part of what your education prepares you, but that very narrow part can be very powerful".
I never expected a simply dinner to go at a simple Chinese resturant can teach me so much about what troubles me for months.
eChallenge
It's a waiting, long and hard. The result was supposed to be out on Mar.1, but not until the midnight of Mar. 1. We lost. To be specific, I, lost. I don't know what to do all of a sudden, it's no shame to lose in a game like this where 80 team compete for top 22 spots. It's no harm to prepare for this challenge. It's just hard to count on somethings so much only to lose.
