Always thinking

And the reason is you

Lynn is leaving, assumably forever, for China. Jim and Susan are hosting a farewell dinner for her, I was also invited. It was very nice, warm, much like a family. We cracked jokes, remember passed stories, and predict the future. We laughed, we smiled. The food is good, Charles Shaw's cheap wine indeed beat our expectation. For the first time of my life, I truely appreciated the beauty of Vegetable salad. A person should be happy, satifisfied around good friends, food. But something is missing, that is the call from you. I waited three days after our little movie date, finally called you at 1pm. After that, every minute became so slow. almost 12 hours passed, there is no sign of call from you. What happened? We used to talk like life will never end, and night never goes away. I am too captivated by you eyes, I want to know everything about you: what you like to eat, when do you go to bed, what do you read, listen. What is in your mind. I don't want to shy away from beautiful you, even that was what I did. I am not boring I swear, you know that, or you wouldn't be attracted to me at first place. I was just shy, too afraid to offend you so to lose you. The longest record in our two weeks romance without call back is last Saturday, I called, it took you more than 24 hours to get back to me. And I didn't call back in 24 hours, and you even called back. You even called me before you headed out to visit me, just to ask me whether I still want you to visit me. I laughed, a good kind of laugh, I will cancel everything for you to visit me. And now you are not calling. I know you are fine, but I am not. Every minute is drudgery. Every thought creates pain. Gaia, call me...

posted by Road less travelled @ 11:30 PM