Always thinking

Back in SF

Ah, I am back, back in US of A, back in San Francisco, the city with the coldest summer. And it's more so now, especially when u think back those steamy summer days in Shanghai. The whole city of San Francisco seems diminishing: where are the cars, where are the people? Where are the lives? Is this where I have been living in for 9 years? Where are the friends?

The last days in Shanghai turned up better, I got to know Caroline, a lovely girl from England who has been living/working in Shanghai for 5 years, and there are lot of westerners like her living/working in shanghai for years. She introduced me to the modern side of Shanghai, she knows so many people (mainly westerners) it's almost shocking to me. We made love, entrenched in the ocean of our sweats, hours and hours, felt like both of us were engulfing each other's body, couldn't get enough. She was an Oxford graduate, a smart one. I wonder what will happen to us. What do I have in Shanghai? My dear parents, my long time friends, now Caroline, maybe Rabea will return to be one of those westerners living/working here for years.

I have never had stronger desire to go back to China to do my own thing. It's been years in bay area and America, yes I will miss it here. But life has come to a tipping point.

posted by Road less travelled @ 3:34 PM