Always thinking

The weekend

As a single person that is not that much occupied, (I have to be honest, in my own blog that I never disclose to anybody that I know), it's often a challenge to figure out what to do in the weekend when it is supposed to be long expected. We planned out for a few fancy parties in the city and it did not pan out due to my friend's chickening out at last minute for sour throat. So here is my typical weekend plan, saturday a late/long sleep until 1:30pm: somehow I still felt not getting enough of sleep, maybe I dreamed too much? Got up in a hurry and headed out for windsurfing till sun down. The wind sucked so was the sail. Someone broken the sail and I think it actually leaked the wind so I just couldn't power up for a nice plaining. So that did not get me excited. Driving back in dry salt and chilly northern californian summer evening, I was almost exhausted to think of driving to somewhere else for party. Met up with friend in a chinese resturant and had nice dinner, drove back passing by Palo Alto downtown where half of the town was filled up with cops, police cars, horses and high volume radio airing, I still don't know what happened. It's seldom to see police action in a place like Palo Alto. So I got back home, did a few things and watched a movie called Iron monkey. Sunday as usual I got up late morning and ran a few errands for friend's wedding photos. I finally visited Bo's place which is pretty tidy up in the mountain. It's a bit too hilly, too quiet, the house is too dark. He felt same. We ended up grabbing some simple lunch at a Mexican resturant on Sand hill road (yes, that Sand hill road with tons of VCs), I headed out for a soccer game. Because of my head, I really didn't have much desire to expose under the sun "bleach" just to play soccer, but they need my help so I actually played for half the game being a defender which being complimented almost by everyone. I have to figure out a way to cover my head in the next 2 months games.

See, all these things I don't really have to do them, I do them because they keep me busy and in shape but they are not what I really want to do. When I got home, my new roommate was cleaning bath room so I helped out on the floor part and took a shower and did the laundry, it's 7pm. I have not had dinner and do not have plan as to what is for dinner. Tomorrow is Monday when I have to work the boring work, just to wait till sun down and came home to work on my own projects. That are probably the only things keeping me going these days. Yesterday I cheered with bo for not being an ordinary person. I guess there are lot of price to pay not to be an ordinary person, I told him that I gave up probably $200k in the passed 4 years after graduation and I hope I will make it big on my dream. I do believe my dream will come true. But at the same time I will not make another mistake not taking the money on the table.

Life is misery, conflict, life is also beautiful, I love the uncertainty of it and the feeling of turning it around. Maybe "Live, Share" is a good slogan. Uncertainty keeps me guess what is next. The question is what is the rule of the game?

posted by Road less travelled @ 6:53 PM