Always thinking

I have an attachment

to my weblog, it was newly discovered. Fear it maybe googled though, the ultimate dairy book is still in my local drive. Gaia has been dominating my mind for well beyond two weeks now. I hope she knows. I hope she is alright, I hope she is not losing her cell phone. There are many ways to talk to her live time, if I doubt she is trying to avoid me. But I want her know it was me who was calling before she makes decision whether to pick up or not. I don't want to fall in the game of cheating, stalking: that is not my cup of tea. If we belong to each other, time will prove to her we should get together. Time! Time is one thing that kills me slowly. Every minute seems drudgery to spend. I could not focus on anything that I should do. I have no desire to develop any new interest, like sailing, performance dancing or sky diving. Those are something I planned to do in 2004, but I can not do any of those. I want to do it with someone that I enjoy being with in the long term. I want to do things with Gaia, things like to take a long walk in foliage covered streets, or grocery shopping at Safeway. And we both love 80's, we both love dancing. I still remember her faked prom party dressing evening: that was the first time I saw her. She was in all white skirt, like an angel, her eyes was covered randomly by strings of her hair, I could see her smile, I wonder if it was for me? We danced together, until, as what she said later to me, "some girl took you away". I wonder what she is doing tonight? I miss her.

posted by Road less travelled @ 12:03 AM