Always thinking

Another July 4th

Exactly a year ago I managed to escape from America to soak myself into the heat wave of Shanghai China, that was my first time in 11 years spending July 4th out of America, it felt rather good. A year gone by, I am here again, alone with no one's company, living in my big apartment on top of the pacific height. I have been thinking about what family means to me, been thinking about what Caroline, my wife means to me. I put some money in her account today to save her from all the troubles in India, giving her a little extra to spend, while focusing on her writing. I think she can only become happy when she finds the success somehow in her nonexistent career. A brilliant woman, she has not managed to stand on her own feet, I want her happy, I want to make her happy, only that we can have a chance to continue on with our fragile, shattered relationship. I have been able to think on her feet, making it easier to not communicate with her, let her to find her own path, give her space and room.

Another July 4th, only this time, I am feeling great about my company and my side project: my company gives me root, a sense of stability, happiness and family. My side project is taking shape, I am thinking about Karma, I am thinking about giving, instead of taking. I am thinking about helping others, helping my wife to go through difficult time with me.

I am sitting in a beautiful apartment by the large windows overseeing half the city of San Francisco, first time in my flowing life in America I am feeling this a bit: home.

posted by Road less travelled @ 9:35 PM