Always thinking

Thanksgiving ski trip

Reno snowed pretty bad, the trip back to bay area took us 8 hours, although it was a great trip with great friends, somehow something is missing. While others formed bonds with each other in the form of family, my theory of having it while I can while I am still single, does not seem working very well for me. It's thanksgiving, everyones I met either do things as couple, or with their family, I am alone, and away from my family. The first email I got was from Nica, with whom we have corresponded with a while. Email from her says she found a perfect match for her so she won't go out for dates for a while. We have not even dated once and I was kinda backed away a little bit a few days ago. It's quite amazing how people talk about great things to impress others, Nica proposed to go dancing, learn Chinese, have coffee, for which I did not responde all actively. You can not, can you? You first meet up a person, check each other out, then decide whether to go for her/him. Then you talk about things to do together if there is chemistry. Peaceful dove said so. I often think of that. It's a bit disappointing. I have become a rather good guy, don't play game like I used to do. I even prefer a stable relationship. If Reno's snow is something you can experience occasionally, as it feels more and more remote and obscure, bay area's everything is reality. I am rootless now.

posted by Road less travelled @ 9:46 PM